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The Pleasure Principle

French Taste by Laura Calder

French Taste by Laura Calder

Steph got this for me for Christmas, and I am just now finally able to sit down with a cup of tea, toast (with lots of butter) and a soft boiled egg, ready to run my hands through its soft, elegant pages and take in the smell of the press (a favourite past-time).

At this time of the year, a lot of us are contemplating what we’ll do different this time around; what we can improve, attempt to define what we want, and configure the necessary steps to get there.

Over the last 5 or 6 months or so, once a week I do two hours of Yoga. Among the many things I have learned in the practice, one of them is “paying attention”.  Stop. Breath. Listen to the quiet. Feel the heart thrumping. And in this, I have found the importance, or the value in,  taking pleasure.

It may be cliché to go on about pleasure, but I do feel it is the secret to living well. (And I say this fully aware that pursuing it is more easily said than done.) At its most basic, the natural human pursuit of pleasure is what makes the body prefer a ripe fruit over a rotten one (a very practical feat of genetic engineering, that). At a higher level of evolution, it’s what makes a person bother to stop, sit down at a table, and enjoy a sandwich off a plate with some dignity, rather than rip at one like a bloodhound while simultaneously driving a car through a deluge and phoning the cleaners about the overcoat dropped off last Wednesday. (We all have our desparate moments, fair enough, but you’d have to be a masochist to make a habit of them.)

French Taste: Elegant  Everyday Eating Laura Calder

How To Eat, French Taste by Laura Calder

How To Eat, French Taste by Laura Calder

So my resolution for this year: take pleasure in everything. But wait. I don’t mean to say that I will quit my job, eat roast every night while polishing off a bottle of wine, and then partake in lusty entertainment. A Taurus like me, must take heed to avoid the fall into pure hedonism - it is no laughing matter.

Rather, when I have my breakfast, I will not gobble and think about my day ahead of me and all the bloody things I have to do, and give myself a stomach ache to boot. I will sit down, and savor the thick, creamy, silky ball of yolk. I will warm my hands on my favorite coffee mug and experience what the good, brown liquid does to me; comfort, warmth, relaxation, nostalgia, home.

Par example: today I have a great deal of sanding, plastering and painting to do. I HATE it. I cannot tell you how much I hate doing it. It is ironic that I, who loves to make paintings, am the worst house painter in the world. I have no patience for it. But rather  than do the job in frustration which will most probably guarantee a shitty outcome, I’ll get into my grubby painting clothes, put on some tunes and a happy face, and take pleasure in it.

Self Portrait

Self Portrait with Kettle

Self Portrait with Kettle

I watched the kettle boil this morning while preparing coffee and found this - (above).

I thought it so funny, I grabbed my camera.

Happy Holidays

T & A's Christmas Card 2009

T & A's Christmas Card 2009, Illustrated Thérèse Neelands

The World is a Wonderful Place

What are they???

mmmm...creatures of some sort or other....

‘Nuff said.

A Favourite Author, A Favourite Illustrator

A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens, Illustrated by Quentin Blake

A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens, Illustrated by Quentin Blake

Charles Dickens and I go way back. Way back. And my first experience of him started with this book, A Christmas Carol, when Steph, every Christmas season, would read aloud to me by the Christmas tree and some apple cidar. After that, I was gripped and hooked by his wild imagination, and delicious command of the English Language, his poetry in prose, and his comical and witty humour.

My favourite author? Yes. Indubitably, yes. (Ms. Atwood comes later).

 Nicholas Nickelby, Hard Times, A Christmas Carol, Christmas Stories, Domby & Son, Martin Chuzzlewit, David Copperfield, Bleak House, The Pickwick Papers, The Old Curiosity Shop

Nicholas Nickelby, Hard Times, A Christmas Carol, Christmas Stories, Domby & Son, Martin Chuzzlewit, David Copperfield, Bleak House, The Pickwick Papers, The Old Curiosity Shop, A Tale of Two Cities

David Copperfield was next, although I was very much aware of A Tale of Two Cities and Madame de Farge. Then Great Expectations and so on and so forth. On and on I read, 900 pages a book, and I am still very touched by them.

My Favourite Author, and My Favourite Illustrator -

Round about the same time I was reading Dickens, I was also reading Roald Dahl (what is it, with the British?) and it was Roald Dahl who introduced me to Quentin Blake. As an artist (one who has wanted to illustrate books from the time I started reading and picked up a pencil), Quentin Blake is my hero. His pictures are such that one can read them. Please explore his website, and watch the videos posted there.

Scrooge in His Countinghouse

Scrooge in His Countinghouse

Quentin Blake and Charles Dickens, although from the same country, are from a very different time, but parallel in their wit,  wild imagination, humour and delight.

"The brightness of the shops where holly sprigs and berries crackled in the lamp heat of the windows, made pale faces ruddy as they passed."

"The brightness of the shops where holly sprigs and berries crackled in the lamp heat of the windows, made pale faces ruddy as they passed."

Last year, I got wind of Dickens’ A Christmas Carol illustrated by Quentin Blake and was astounded by the sheer perfectness of a match.

" 'Where is he, my love?' said Scrooge"

" 'Where is he, my love?' said Scrooge"

I’ve looked all over for it since, and last weekend, after Steph’s return from England, she hands over this book to me. At the right time to inspire me to illustrate T & A’s annual Christmas Card. Please see below.

T & A's Christmas Card 2008, Illustrated Therese Neelands

T & A's Christmas Card 2008, Illustrated Therese Neelands

And now, after I pour myself my last bit of coffee, and sit in my new studio, that is exactly what I am about to do.

The Best Book Ever, If Ever There Was One

White Teeth, by Zadie Smith

White Teeth, by Zadie Smith

Oh, dear. Another “Best Book Ever, If Ever There Was One”, post. Honest to God, I either have a knack for grabbing great books off the shelf or there are a hell of a lot of good books.

I picked this up last week. It is not only hilarious, but superbly well written. It’s definitely a book to be read aloud. It shows  Smith’s witty brain, and her acute powers of observation - of people from all walks of life - kids, parents, immigrant parents struggling with their kids. Racists, crazy street people, Roman Catholics, Methodists, Muslims, Hindus, different cultures, different families, different ages, different histories.

Here is an excerpt - pg. 168

Mr J.P. Hamilton, confronted on his doorstep by three dark-skinned children clutching a myriad of projectiles, was duly surprised. As old as they had imagined but far taller and cleaner, he opened the door only slightly, keeping his hand, with its mountain range of blue veins, upon the knob, while his head curled around the frame. To Irie he was reminiscent of some genteel elderly eagle; tufts of feather-like hair protruded from ear drums, shirt cuffs and the neck, with one white spray falling over his forehead, his fingers lay in a permanent tight spasm like talons, and he was well dressed, as one might expect of an elderly English bird in Wonderland - a suede waistcoat and a tweed jacket, and a watch on a gold chain.

And twinkling like a magpie, from the blue scattering in his eyes undimmed by the white and red surround, to the gleam of a signet ring, four argent medals perched just above his heart, and the silver rim of a Senior Service packet peeping over the breast pocket.

‘Please,’ came the voice from the bird-man, a voice that even the children sensed was from a different class, a different era. ‘I must ask that you remove yourselves from my doorstep. I have no money whatsoever; so be your intention robbing or selling I’m afraid you will be disapointed’.

Magid stepped forward, trying to place himself in the old man’s eyeline, for the left eye, blue as Rayleigh scattering, had looked beyond them, while the right was so compacted beneath wrinkles it hardly opened. ‘Mr. Hamilton, don’t you remember, the school sent us, these are - ‘

He said, ‘Goodbye, now,’ as if he were bidding farewell to an elderly aunt embarking on a train journey, then once more ‘Goodbye’, and through two panels of cheap stained-glass on the closed door the children watched the lengthy figure of Mr. Hamilton, blurred as if by heat, walking slowly away from them down a corridor until the brown flecks of him merged with the brown flecks of the household furnishings and the former all but disappeared.

In a way, the book is somewhat Dickensian for me - in the way that her characters are all just slightly absurd, which somehow makes them all the more real, in the way she highlights class distinction and in her very detailed descriptions of personal particulars.

Scrumdidliumptious.

Lately

Work in Progress

Work in Progress

Still a long way to go before this rights itself…

The Story of Edgar Sawtelle

The Story of Edgar Sawtelle

What I’m listening to….

Endless Forms Most Beautiful

Endless Forms Most Beautiful

What I’m looking at… I have absolutely no idea what “Evo Devo” is. Evolution Devolution? But apparently, it’s the ‘New Science’…

Terry Winters, Morula III

Terry Winters, Morula III

Bought this Terry Winters catalogue of printed works published by the Metropolitan Museum of Art.

Back to painting - which seems a bit of a sin on this gorgeous, warm, Fall day!

Sunday Afternoon

 

Lunch.

Lunch.

My paintbrush isn’t cooperating today, but I certainly had a good lunch. A good friend of mine thought I could do with a treat and showed up at my work yesterday with a bagful of goodies…i.e…..a selection of delicious cheeses, a loaf of chewy, crusty bread, and a wedge of fig and almond cake.

Thanks ‘bro!

No Pictures Today, Just Words

May 9th, 10th, 2009

- Hope/Optimism - optimism = logistical - something good will come out of it - Knowledge - not often optimistic, but to be hopeful gives the opportunity for optimism.

I found the above scrawled in my journal yesterday. I remember Steph and I were at that author thing at Hart House in the spring - there was some discussion - doctors without borders, or something. But that thought stuck with me.

I’ve just finished The Origin of Species (Nino Ricci).  I’m trying to compare it with all the other books I’ve read in my short life. I’m trying hard not to say it’s the best book I’ve ever read, a thing not to say lightly, and often said without real evaluation, like waking up with a heavy hangover and saying to yourself you’ll never drink again. (except for Steph).

*Nicole Collins, my process and materials instructor at OCAD, a person who will always stick in my memory, said that before she starts painting she feels an overwhelming sense of responsibility. The painting had to be great, it had to be about “Life, The Universe, and Everything”, and nothing short of it. I’ve understood this completely, it’s probably the reason why I don’t paint a lot - but Nicole did these paintings, and they were about Life, The Universe and Everything, and when you looked at them, and heard her speak about them, it was like entering through a door where you didn’t know what was behind it, but that was what made it so exciting - to feel like what was at your fingertips was everything, but that you couldn’t explain it, all the mysteries of the world that you could only experience through feeling. The feeling that all that knowledge was in front of you, all the answers, all the questions, too much to put your finger on.

The Origin of Species was like that for me. But it was also like it contained everything I wanted it to, everything I’m thinking about, everything I’m experiencing, and everything I want to know more about. I read paragraphs over and over again, (I’m sure I would have finished the book in a day and a half, otherwise) just to make sure I had uncovered every layer of thought in them, the thought of the protagonist (Alex) and my own thought.

It is the universality of the book, the truthful, honest way in which it speaks of what it is to be human - animal - on this earth - that makes it about Life, The Universe and Everything - and is what makes it such a strong novel - as Ricci says (about what a good novel does) - “…they speak to our most basic motivations and drives, giving a shape to them that no straightforward analysis or description could ever quite capture.” And the GGs jury cites about the book “…this story reads as if it has come up through our collective memory.” - and that is what I mean as well.

When I read the last sentence, I let out a breath, not wanting to believe it was over - and tried to satisfy myself by reading the acknowledgments and the colophon, and then the 4 blank pages afterwards.

Of course I’ll read his other books prior to this one, but I know they won’t trump this one. They won’t feed me the way this one did. And I know that I’ll have to write to him, of course. And I’ll paint today - and try not to let the burden of “Life, The Universe and Everything” get to me.

*see, in particular, at nicolecollins.com/writing/statements/May 2006


You’d Think This Was A Blog About Books

Cappucino by Ella's Uncle, where the proprieter bakes delicious things right in front of you, and makes delicious designs on the surface of your cup of joe. Book by new fav. author Nino Ricci

Cappucino by Ella's Uncle, where the proprietress bakes delicious things right in front of you, and makes delicious designs on the surface of your cup of joe. Book by new fav. author Nino Ricci

Yesterday morning I woke up early in preparation. To plan my day for The Word on the Street Festival, I pour over the schedule on their website. Steph calls me at 10:00AM to advise on what not to miss etc. Margaret Atwood at 3:00. Nino Ricci at 1:30, Anthony De Sa, and so on. ) I rely on Steph for book advice. You can ask her about any random author, and without missing a beat, she’ll tell you every book he’s written, where you can get it on sale, and any random minutiae about his life).

Barnacle Love, Anthony de Saa

Barnacle Love, Anthony De Sa

I caught Anthony De Sa at 12:15 (winner 2009 Giller for Barnacle Love) and totally fell in love. (he wears Blundstones and swears by his Mac). I haven’t read Barnacle Love yet, but when it first came out, immediately wanted to covet it because of the gorgeous cover. (I can totally judge a book by its cover, by the way). Definitely my next read.

The Origin of Species, Nino Ricci

The Origin of Species, Nino Ricci

I heard Nino Ricci read from his latest book The Origin of Species (Govener General Literary Awards) for the second time. I first heard him when Steph and I went to this Literary Author Reading Book Bonanza at Hart House last spring. Ricci is smart. And has big black eyebrows that frame his face, which I also like. Hearing him speak, I knew his book would be a good influence for my painting, and I picked up a beautiful copy on my way home at a second hand book store (She Said Boom, on College St.) for $10.00. I am now half way through and can’t stop. I even woke up at 6:30AM on my day off and tucked myself in for a good few hours of reading while the wind and the rain howled outside. Mmmm. (Along with peppermint ginger tea, I’m getting a cold).

Margaret Atwood

Margaret Atwood was brilliant, as usual. Sprightly, energetic, hilarious, impish, and ridiculous in her giant, red sketchers. Elenor Wachtel from CBCs Writer’s In Company was the host, and the whole thing went cross-Canada with Halifax and Vancouver connected on screens flanking the stage. She read a short excerpt from her latest novel The Year In The Flood (not a sequel or prequel to Oryx and Crake, but a simultaneous one, experienced from a girl’s perspective, as opposed to Jimmy’s.) I must admit, I got a little bit emotional when she trotted on stage - her dedication to a writing life, the arts, and politics makes me overwhelmed with gratitude. Atwood has been, for many, many years, my most favourite author and person.

The View From Out Here was a panel discussion between Dionne Brand, Camilla Gibb, Nino Ricci (sigh!) and Jane Urquhart. Urquhart was totally on fire and kept interrupting everyone, but since what she had to say was pretty intelligent, I didn’t mind, although Ricci looked a little irked at one point.

I arrived home pretty exhausted and overwhelmed and inspired. And also a little delirious from not having eaten all day.

Work in Progress

Work in Progress

Above is a work in progress, an experiment. I’m sketching some things, sticking them under my projector, blowing things up, scaling things down, and sort of collaging as I go along. I like the process which is freeing in that I never know what’s going to happen next, but restrictive in that I’m staying within specific perimeters which gives me a lot less to worry about.

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P.S. Seems I can’t create a link in a caption for an image, so check out Ella’s Uncle on Dundas St.